This past week, and I'm sure weeks to come, have been very trying for me. I am becoming increasingly bored with my job. It is in no way fullfilling. Other than filling my bank account, it does absolutely nothing for me. I find myself getting angry to the point of explosion on a daily basis. The only problem is that I've got to supress, I can't just start lashing out on people. It's driving me crazy. Every day to me is like the movie "Groundhog Day". It's the same repetitive bullshit. I wake up, go to work, come home in a bad mode, and prepare for the same shit again the next day. Every day I think to myself "There's got to be something better. Maybe tomorrow I'll find it". And every day there I am doing the same thing as the previous day, thinking the same thoughts, and experiencing the rage inside flare up. I just need to go outside and scream at the top of my lungs until it's all out..........but then what? Let it all build up until I need to go outside and blow once more? Where are the answers? I'm not succeeding at going "inside" to find the answers. I'm not even sure what I'm looking for. What is one to do? This is the most human side of me. The insanity, that is. "Universe, I seek the truth. Give me the truth I need to get by in this life and to make the best of it." I'll do my best to be aware.......other than that, I'm at a loss. Where to go when nothing physical gives you happiness? Where to go when you seek the truth and everything just seems false? Where to go to escape the Human Side of Me?